A (very) brief explanation

To those of you wondering where my last update is: I took it down. I'd like to think I convey a certain sense of frankness and objectivity on this blog - at least as much as I can while being an emotional disaster - and that won't change, I assure you. I will not censor myself or avoid talking about difficult topics, because that's what this blog is here for.

However, there's also a case to be made for respect and accommodation. And while it may not be reciprocated, I shouldn't use that as an excuse. I do not withdraw anything I said in the previous update, and can only state once more that it was simply my own take on a series of events, one which I was finding particularly vexing at the time.

Look forward to more updates soon!

I've covered blogs, you know...

So I guess... I guess I should just say one or two things. Right?

This isn't my first blog, though hopefully it will be my last. I'd like to step away from all the bullshit - the Facebook posts and tweets and tumblr updates and all the other incessantly updated apps and sites which make me so crazy - and create something a little more serious, maybe a little more substantial. It's why I've put my name right up there. Which is scary, because I come from a time where there was no accountability on the internet. I won't deny that anonymity can be dangerous, as people tend to become animals when they cannot be held responsible, but it's also very important for those who may only feel comfortable being themselves when there's a shield between their online identity and their physical identity.

Oh jeez, look at that. This is turning into a treatise, which is not what I wanted. The point is that I wanted a place where I could put some more serious stuff, whether that be rough drafts of stories or things that I'm working on or even just a brief word picture of the daily hellscape that is my life. A place blessedly free of re-tweets and Likes. A place that I might not be completely ashamed of tying directly to myself, without the shroud of an alias.

I've been thinking a lot about - well, about a lot, recently. There's been some major upsets in my life that have caused me to really sit back and... I don't know how to end that without using a cliche. Examine, I suppose. I don't want to say everything, because that's being quite dramatic, but enough to put me into a bit of a spiral. There's something there about emotions, and... I guess that's for another post, actually.

I hope to keep this updated. I really do. Normally I find it very difficult to consistently update any kind of social media on a regular basis, because I simply don't have that much going on. Right now, though, I feel like there are a lot of things going on in my life. Or at least, a lot of thoughts, which are almost as good as tangible events if you're looking for fodder for a crummy little blog like this one. And, for better or worse, I can see that state of affairs continuing for at least the near future.

I'm not going to get sappy or overly-emotional; this is not going to be a lightening rod for drama, or a constant bitch-fest about the poison misery which drops into my eyes every day. This blog should be a little more professional, and maybe even thought-provoking - or hate-provoking? I don't know. Hopefully it will be entertaining in some small way. We'll see.

At the very least I can always throw part of a work-in-progress up.